3 in the morning

its 3 in the morning and i'm still wide awake. my insomnia is worsen. i need help. i'm supposed to sleep at this hour as i got class as early as 8 tomorrow. i just don't know why i'm having trouble to sleep. i don't sleep during the day either. my room mates can see the different. haihh. can somebody please help me? :( but yesterday i slept quite early. itu pun sbb makan ubat selesema. need to see the doctor when i'm back to KL tomorrow.

WHAT WHAT? you're gioing back tomorrow? YEAH! but why? youre just arrive. don't you? THAT'S TRUE BUT IM NOT GONNA LET MY SELF BEING AN IDIOT CELEBRATING HARI RAYA HERE. ohhh, when is the hari raya? THIS WEDNESDAY! CANT WAIT TO EAT MEAT. NYUM NYUM. okay thoyy, enough being so insane. hahaha. i don't know what to write. i'm out of idea. but its okay. i'll force my self to come out with the topic. you guys just have to hang on and keep reading this shit. okay, this is not a shit. this is my masterpiece. pheww, masterpiece? hahaha. kinda.

okay i've got lot of ideas on what i should i say tonight. well, najwa and i are the only ones who are still awake. najwa is studying and im online-ing. dont make any speculation. i've done studying. my brain is already cramped cus i've been studying since 11pm. najwa just started studying cus she's been online-ing since 12 am. skype-ing with her bf while i'm having a fight with my boy. you wanna know the reason? well, its just a small matter actually.

faris : i nak jumpa you for 2 days taw!
me: alright. make sure bila nak jumpa i tu bawa my birthday present. i nak jam taw! hehe
faris : alaaa, jam tu nanti la b. time anniversary? mana nak cekau rm400 skrg?
me: i nak jam rm10 je. i tak nak mahal-mahal. hahah
faris: haha, nak cari dekat mana?
me: pasar malam. haha.(tiba-tiba mood berubah. maklumlah, tengah period -.-") tak payah la b, i tak nak my birthday present pun. birthday i dah lepas lah. i'm almost 19 and you baru nak bagi present for my 18th birthday? sumpah tak syok.
faris: alaa, bukannya i yg tak nak beli you yg tak nak pilih.
me: dah la, you pergi tidur. i nak sambung study
faris: hmm okay lah by...
then i hung up the phone before he manage to finish his line.

i dont know what got into me. as what ive said, its really a small matter but i just couldnt help my self from being annoyed with him. he said he loves me but what has he done? i havent got my birthday present from the guy i love. what say you? im not interested with birthday present pun actually but what kind of boyfriend is that? i dont wanna talk the bad things about him cus i love him very much and we've been together for almost 2 years. i dont wanna ruin our relationship just because i dont get my birthday present. but i feel like he's not appreciating me at all. its not hard to get a birthday present for me to show that you love, and care for me.

i dont mind what he's gonna give me. i know i'm a materialistic. but, i never asked him for things he couldnt afford. i love him for who he is. not because he's a son of a very rich man in town. not because he got his car when he's 17 years old and drives that car to school everyday. not because he owns that supercute black car while others are using their parents' car. yes i admit, i love guy who owns a car. i think, every girl wants their boyfriend to own a car kan? who wants to wear all the pretty baju but then you have to wait for the public transport? no one loves that kan? well, i've gone too far. lets go back to the track.

the reason why i feel so kecil hati cus for not gettig my present is because, my senior got a lomo for her birthday on September (if i'm not mistaken) eventhough her birthday is on November. that shows that her bf loves her kan? im not jealous cus she got lomo but cus she got the present in advance while my present is delayed.

okay, enough nagging thoyy. i'm tired to explain whats on my mind so that i wont be the victim for judge mental people out there. well, if you got what i mean in this post, the reason why i'm so angry with faris, then its good but for those who wish to say, "ekeleh peremuan ni, nak minta hadiah dari boyfriend pulak" then you should click the X button up there now. I REALLY MEAN IT. NOW!!! dont have to read the rest of this post. dont know what else should i say. kbye