hello reader. its another typical saturday in my journey to be done with matriculation. im having my favourite anlene at this moment. dont be shock for im drinking anlene eventhough im not that old. just so you know that i'm in love with milk lately. harhar.
i've read few of my previous post before im writing this post and i just realized that most of my previous post were immature. the way i write and all. don't know why on earth did i write such way. one of my resolutions for 2011 is to be mature. to be mature in a lot of aspects. but somehow, i dunno in what way should i change.
staying here makes me not expose to the outside world. i dunno whats happening right now. its not that i wanna blame this place again or something but thats the fact. i sometimes feel like i'm on of akademi fantasia students who cant contact with outside world so that they can concentrate with their studies. haha. but i know i shouldn't blame this place as i chose to be here. no im not. ibu forced me to study here instead of going to uitm segamat. nvm, i'd stop blaming, cursing this place for i'm going to be done with this thing soon. so soon. i'm actually gonna finish with matriculation in 2 months plus and not 4 months like i've mentioned earlier.
i hate goodbye. that sounds weird. i know it is for i always say that i really wanna leave this place. if i could get my ass out of here, i'll extremely will do it. no kidding. but i'm sad as i'm gonna leave my beloved room mates - klate, nasirah, najwa and salihawani. not to forget my claasmates - siti, iffat and datin. and also few of my friends here. friends are forever. i believe in that but when we're done with this thing, i couldn't find any ways to meet them all. especially my room mates as no one is from KL. except for najwa lah. everyone lives so far away. and that bugs me so much. i'm seriously gonna miss them.
i've nothing to do and thats why im writing such a longgg post right now. and oh, im actually not telling the truth for there are a lot of assignments to be submitted before Chinese New Year. i'm working on them. trust me but i've doubt that i would end up submitting a very good assignments. i'm seriously have no idea on what to write and all. and now people will say, how come you have no idea to write? i might be good in writing stuff here but not in doing assignments. this blog is like my friend. the closest one. so its like im telling my "closest friend" whats on my mind and what i feel right now. talking to my closest friend is better maybe?
talking about friends, i sometimes feel like i have lost all my friends. all my friends from SAB perhaps. i have a friend who call her self a best friend of mine yet she's not acting like one these few days. just so you know that it hurts real bad. i mean like, i know you have boyfriend and all. so do i but i wonder why cant she just acts like she used to be? i miss you. i really hate it when people changed just because she's not single anymore. as in they have been waiting the moment where they are in a relationship and friends are just a place for them to be with and for short period. thats bullshit you know?
i tease her for few times, and i'm acting like i'm not serious at all. i wanted you to know that i'm serious and not kidding at all. dear bestfriend, please dont make me hate you for you know that i'm not kind when it comes to forgiving people. you know me very well but why cant you treat me like i'm supposed to. perhaps if you're reading this post you'll call me so we could have heart to heart conversation. its weird for me to call you and telling all these things so i hope by writing it here, you'll get the clue. but i believe you wont read this post. i know you very well. you're into facebook only and not other stuff. therefore, i believe that this conflict ain't gonna settle.
people oh people,
i just want you to know that i don't want to be followed or following people here. i mean like, whats the purpose of doing so? i don't set this blog for private and everyone can simply read em. i just wont accept the request to be followed. sorry. i don't mind to let the people out there reading this blog so you know whats happening in my life and stop judging people for we're all different. thank you.
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