family

so, i'm not a strong person. i always fail to control my anger. my anger towards everyone. i just dont know why am i acting this way. i need help. someone really needs to kick my ass off and let me know that im not the king in this house.



sorry sisters, its not that i dont know how to respect you but im just lost in my own world. thousand apologies :( i miss you guys like crazy but everyone in this house is so fucking busy and have no time for me, everyone has their own agenda. everyone ignores me. i wish bibik is at home so i'd have friends to talk to. it sucks real bad to wake up every morning and realize that i'm the only person in the house. ibu and abah gone to their office, uyuy and amad to school and ajat to the college. whats the point having holidays but the fact is i'd be much more happier when im stuck at arau. at least bila dekat arau ada jugak org nak cakap good morning thoyy.

i sometimes wonder weather do you guys ever miss me like i miss you? do you ever thought of spending time with me while i'm still at home? i know everyone in this house couldnt spend their whole time for me but cn you please understand that a conversation a day would really make my day. ibu and abah, i know you're so busy with your work but...... arghh, i shouldnt be so selfish. should stop being so pathetic anyways.