i shouldn't do this to my self. i mean, what's the need of doing that thing? if he's dumb enough to walk away, then i should be strong enough to let go. there are so much thing that i need to do at this moment. finals is around the corner. it will be started on 11th April 2011. so close one :O and i haven't prepared a thing.
the pain. it will always stay there. it will take such a long time for me to heal but, i have them with me. and who are they? of course lah my best friends :) i believe that Allah has better plan for me. i do love this relationship but, bak kata pepatah, kita hanya merancang, Allah yang menentukan. we both still have long way to go. tak payah la nak fikir-fikir lagi pasal couple-couple ni. :)
if i'm not mistaken, i've told him that IF we break up one day, i won't find any guy for me cus i'm tired of being in relationship. you know, all the lovey dovey thing will never last forever. no matter how hard we try to save the relationship, if he's not the one, akan break juga. plus, i am still young. i just need to concentrate with my studies. :) but, as what i've said earlier, kita merancang, if tiba2 nanti akan jumpa yg baru, nak buat macam mana? but still, i will try my best to not be in any relationship. i just want to be in love with a guy who soon will be my husband.
naah, i'm not trying to make you all think that i'm so gatal one sampai nak fikir pasal kahwin nii. what i wanted to let you guys know is how serious i am to not be in any relationship after this. do you get what i mean? i hope you'll get it. i have a friend who has promised herself to be single until she is done with degree. seems like i'm going to follow her step as well. ibu always tell me to study first, earn money then only its the right time to think about guys. okay, enough talking about this. FULL STOP.
boys come and go but best friend stay :)
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