what went into me last night?

yesterday night was like, erghhh. i dont know how to say. i was just not being my self for 1234th times. maybe because it was my first day of period? PMS kot? haha. i dont know. those who know me well, especially my family knows how awful i could be when its time of the month. so sorry everyone.

cried alone in my room. felt like no one's with me. so i called Fadhilah cus everytime i'm in this situation, i wouldn't call anyone else. she's the only shoulder to cry on. its not that the rest of my best friends aren't with me when i need them but i really feel comfortable with her. but she was busy with her work and couldnt spend some time to listen to my problem.

tumblr is girls' bestfriend. look what i've found :


i really hate being alone. i was alone in my room yesterday cus everyone wasnt at home. and it made me think about things that i shouldnt and it kept bothering me until i reached the part where "i'm the reason all these thing happened. it's my fault things turned this way. serve me right". what else could you do when you're the one who have destroyed your happiness?


had an argument with kakak and it bothered me so much. then ibu called and asked me to meet her downstairs as she misses me. -..- but when i saw ibu's face, there was a strange feeling. i suddenly hate my mum and didnt want to talk to her at all. when she started a conversation, all i did was crying. then i went upstairs and locked my self in my room.


cried non stop in my room. shout as loud as i could. i made ibu worried. again. why on earth i always fail be a good daughter to my mummy? :( and after the crying part was done, i can summarize this,



well, i really have problems with my self. its me actually. not anyone else who made me in such conditions. haha. but life is like a roller coaster. it has ups and downs.but its your choice to scream and enjoy the ride :)