lost

hey everyone. im back. sorry for missing in action for quite a long period. i just dont have the time to blog. ive been very very busy this few days and the connection is always being a bitch. why la why?

okay, so since something had happened on the 31st december, i went crazy. i even said that i wanna die. sigh. i shouldnt said that. yeah i know. my mummy loves me very much. she cares about me, she calls me almost everyday just to know whether i've eaten or not. why should i wanna die? there's a lot of people who still love me. okay, so my first new year resolution is, no more i wanna die or whatsoever whenever im in a mess.

ohh, i miss my girlfriends terribly much, i mean like seriously rindu gila. haih. i miss nadia, azza, fadhilah, putri, skeena, sarah liyana and syafika azni. oooh, i wanna cry. i wanna go back to high school. high school is the best place in the world (excluding the part where we have to study okay ;p ) i wanna be 17 again. i had the most amazing moments in my life when i was 17. i really wanna meet all of them especially my nadia. ihaven't seen her for like more than a year i guess. ohhh nadia, i swear i miss you very much :(

i miss home too. i wanna go home as soon as possible. yeah, i know mid semester break is less than a week but i just cant wait. haiyaaa. i miss staying at KL. i've so many friends there. im a loner here. im a loner at arau. everyone here doesnt wanna be my friend. they dont even talk to me. *i almost wana cry. okay, tahan. i know, im the one yang sombong but i just cant resist being like this. its too hard to start a conversation. :( still remember when i was in form 1 , nadia, anis and putri started to talk to me first and we became close since that day. and i could say that i only have nadia, putri, fadhilah, skeena, azza, syafika and sarah liyana as my friend at school. im so pathetic. sigh. why its so hard to make new friends at this place?

can someone please talk to me. we almost done with matriculation but i have less than 20 friends. what the eff? haih. its okay thoyy. be strong, concentrate with your studies. 4 months left. your best friends and family are always be with you.

okay, should stop writing now. need to head to the study table. mid term is next week. wooo, so scared. wish me luck peeps. and for tonight also - MUET result is out at 12.01 am. ouch, im so nervous. hope i will get at least band 5. but if i dont get band 5, band 4 would be okay though. i just hope my result will qualify me to do TESL. okay, goodbye for now.

love you :)