the very frustrating moment

so, the result is out yesterday. eventhough the lecturer said that the result can only be checked on 12.01 am but i got my result as earlier as 6 pm. aliff, one of my new friend here said that he has checked his result. i thought he was just kidding at first so i quickly check my result at the mpm website and this is what i got,



and guess what happened next? tears came out from my eyelids. i just couldnt believe that after all the hard work i've given, thats what i got. i still can accept if i got band 4 but band 3? this is so embarrassing. i've made almost everyone disappointed with me. my mum, my teacher. she thought that i would end up getting band 4 but this is what i gave to her :(

i have friends who got band 4. i'm still wondering why on earth they could get that but i didn't? no, i'm not looking down to them but i know my english level. i know im not that good but i ain't that bad. same goes to them but why, why cant i get what they got? arghhhh.

with this result, i have to drop TESL from the upu. sorry kids, you wont get a chance to learn english with miss thoyy. chewah. hihi. (i can finally smile right now cus someone just gave me the strengths that i lost yesterday)i accept this faith cus i believe that Allah has a better plan for me. as what aliff has said, "maybe tuhan tahu kalau you buat tesl nnt you tak dapat kerja" haha. i can feel that my jodoh with account is so strong, hahaha. endy asked me to repeat the test. im so gonna repeat and i will try my best to get band 5! too high? naaah, its okay.

to all my haters,
laugh at me. laugh at my result. its okay. this is not the end of the world yet is the beginning of great result in future. kbye.

should sleep now. its 3.10 am already. i haven't ironed my baju kurung and i got two quizzes tomorrow. my life is getting more hectic each day. hope that i could handle this. bye readers. i love you. hope to see you again in the next post.