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i'm starting to love this place. the lecturers, friends and all. i know i've complained about few things at twitter. but its normal. there's no better place than home. i'm happy staying here. to be compared with matriculation, obviously. less homesick. well, probably because mom calls me everyday, without miss. but it would be so much better if i was placed at the main campus.


there's something that has been lingering on my mind these few days. everywhere i go, i will always met those culture shocked people. i praise to the God that i am not on of them. i dont have any intention to smear them. this is just my thought.


these people are funny. so proud of telling everyone that they've went to this club, that club. funny to see you brag about that while someone else who go to that place every week, dont tell people as much as you do. funny when i heard that this one guy wanted to get his ear pierce so bad. padahal dia dah lama tak balik rumah sebab takut his dad belasah dia if he sees his son's hair being dyed.


i've colored my hair many times, my parents have never complained about it. i rarely stay at home, come back late and such. my parents nag, but never take any action. i've never been grounded. people said my parents tak reti jaga anak, gave us four too much freedom. but that made who am i today. even though i'm far from my family, i'm still me. i've never made my parents worry cus they know what i am doing. i do the same things, just like if i'm at kl.


I already got the satisfaction of all things. what other teens are doing, I can do it too. in front of my parents lagi. so why bother doing things behind my parents' back? whenever mom is mad cus baby brother and sister come home late, i always tell my mom, "ibu nak diorang macam ni in front of you, or ibu nak diorang macam ni bila diorang dah masuk uni? bila ibu dah tak boleh control diorang?"


not to be proud of this self. but wherever i go, i will never be one of those people. that i can guarantee. to those yang terasa with this entry, why do you have to do things that you know, if your parents find out, they'll get upset? why bother being someone else? why are you guys trying so hard to fit in? its not wrong to be different. just be yourself. you have nothing to loose if you never do such things. peace