sikit-sikit stress

i get pissed easily. get annoyed easily. and when i'm pissed or annoyed with something, i'll curse like there's no tomorrow. as if there's no any other polite words that can be thrown out from this huge mouth. haih. sometimes i wish i wasnt me. i always lose whenever it comes to handling my emotions.


the day i stepped my foot to this place, mom reminded me not to have any arguments with anyone. she wanted me to be ones who can control my anger, and curse less. but obviously, i've failed. somebody needs to slap my face real hard and says, "Thoyy, kau ingat satu dunia nak layan kau punya emo tu je ke? kau sikit-sikit nak touching. sikit-sikit nak emo. sikit-sikit stress" haa, something like that. literally.


i have this one bad attitude, whenever i'm pissed, or stressed, or whatever that can effect my mood, i'll remain silent. not even a single word can possibly come out from me. and this somehow, will effect other's feeling too. :( i know it's gonna hurt my friends' feeling but thats the best way though.


this week. wait. not this week. this two weeks have been so fucking mean to me. i didnt get enough of sleep (THIS IS THE MAIN REASON I'M ON A BAD MOOD.) i have 3 tests on the lists, assignments to be submitted before the midsem break. dealing with my homesickness lagi (havent gone home for a month because of my hectic schedule). haih. everything is hard.


im not complaining though. seriously. cus i did watch some videos on youtube then i found this video, :)





sumpah buat i feel like, i really need to stop complaining. aaa, i dont know how to say this. but this video has inspired me. i've became more positive. cewahhh. this is why i love youtube. hehe. beat your problems today, and move forward :)




p/s: i miss talking with people in utagha accent. duduk sini tak taw nak habaq utagha dengan sapa. cheq rindu lah roommates dekat matric. hangpa rindu tak kat cheq? FAILED thoyy, failed. haha