Okay

Mulut kata okay, 

Walhal hati kata tak.

Mulut kata boleh buat ni, 

Walhal hati kata tak.

Mulut kata tahan la sikit lagi,

Walhal hati dah reached its limit untuk tahan. 

Mulut kata, "percayalah, in the end everything's gonna be worth it",

Walhal hati pun ragu-ragu. Betul ke? Kalau tak macam mana? 

Mulut kata, "padan muka. Siapa suruh percaya" 

Sometimes we already know the consequences of our actions, yet we'd still do it. As if we have the power to bear with the heartaches. People keep on saying that, we're the key to our happiness. But why nobody has ever told me that, "we're the key to our sadness"? Padahal that's the truth.

I know it's gonna make me sad, yet I keep on doing it. Kadang-kadang sedih bukan sebab tak dapat, sedih sebab even if kita dah dapat, kita pun tak dapat confirmation yang kita memang dah dapat. Macam kerja, in the first six months, masa tempoh percubaan tu. We give our best so that kita dapat jadi staff permanent, we know we're giving our best, even if others couldn't see. Dengan harapan our boss nampak, realize. Takpelah kalau colleagues tak nampak, asalkan our boss nampak. But after six months, if kita tak dapat jadi permanent staff, apa rasa eh? Lepas everything yang kita dah bagi? Cari je la kerja baru. Macam tu? What if kita tak nak and nak tunggu je kerja baru datang bergolek depan mata. Boleh tak? 

Takut...... Sebab there's too many uncertainties. 

Faham tak? Kalau tak faham takpe, sebab I was born to be this complicated. 

P/s: no matter how many times we say we can handle things to people, in the end we're the one who really know our capabilities. Betul ke boleh? Betulke? Kita je yang tahu. :) tapi percayalah, life is a beautiful struggle.